The memorable Father's Day

On the actual Father's Day, it ended up with lots of tears. 

I'm writing this with Mia "koala-ing" on top me and she is sleeping peacefully. Nana is snoring near my leg. 

But we had just been through a very rough evening at Fiona Stanley Hospital Emergency Department. 

We started the beautiful Sunday morning with a fussy Mia, quite a bit of screaming and crying. I tried to rock her burp her and finally she had a massive burp and calmed down. So we went for a beautiful breakky with Popo and Gong Gong. 

In the noon, we even made it to Sophie's 1st birthday party. It's all wonderful and the weather was just perfect. However when I tried to feed Mia around 2.30pm as she due for a feed, she didn't latch on. She was fussy and I thought perhaps she was over stimulated or was not hungry. 

I tried again around 3.30pm with no successful and Mia looked very tired. Finally she fall aslept on me and slept again on our way home. I drove for extra 20 mins so that Mia could have 45mins nap at least. 

Then got home around 5pm, tried feeding. Again, FAILED. She wouldn't stop crying, screaming, and seriously nothing I could do. I knew she would have been hungry by 6pm as her last feed was around one! So we decided to take her to the hospital.

She was not able to settle, lots of screaming and heart rate was at 210bpm! The nurses and doctor did lots of checkings however Mia was too unsettled. They gave her sugar water and panadol. Magically it did the wonder, Mia calmed down and slowly latched on. 

Thanks godness! 

Continue with lots of feeding and doc wasn't happy with her urine test, he suspected UTI. So they did 2 rounds of catheters to uretha. Imagine the pain?

My heart was torn apart, and nurses gave me the option to stay for the procedure or I could go away as its really dreadful to watch your baby going through this pain. 

How could I leave? 

All Mia wanted was   ME! 

She was screaming crying and her eyes wouldn't stop looking at me..

I stayed and I knew I have to. 

Finally we got a clean urine sample and Mia is cleared to go home. 

So what's wrong with Mia? We don't know exactly why but we know she was in huge pain, stress and she wasn't the happy Mia. 

Came home and let Mia zz on top of me, gave Nana a good rub...

This is it, I'm not going anywhere, my girls will sleep the night like this.. 

My heart was broken, I had big cries to myself. Nana just had her lumps removal 2 weeks ago, Mia's pain..I feel helpless. 

At least, now they both are doing fine. 4.30am, both are sleeping again peacefully. 

Love you both my girls.